It’s a different style of blog post from me today; more of a personal blog post reflecting on my morning. My blog posts aren’t usually of this style these days. But this morning I had feelings I needed to process and I thought I’d share my confessions with you.
So I haven’t felt like this for a long time. I don’t really know why its built up like this today. Although I’m sure things will be clearer when I’ve finished journalling. Opening my journal and free-writing as the words come to my mind is such a therapeutic way to work through my feelings. I’ve used it for years and even if I don’t feel like starting, by the end of the writing exercise I can already feel the benefit. This is why I always recommend it to my audience and clients.
How I’m Feeling Today
Some of the things on my mind that are making me feel overwhelmed and generally out of sorts.
- things not in their right places
- things being unclean or untidy
- systems not working
- the stress of being behind with work
- getting annoyed at myself for being behind with work
- not being sure what to focus on or give my time to (because I felt behind with everything!)
Am I better off not doing anything until I’m in a better frame of mind and have some time off instead? Or is that going to make me feel worse because the things are still there, slowly annoying me? Then I tell myself I’ve had time off in the last couple of weeks when I’ve been ill. I would love to know if you can relate to this way of thinking. Come on Tina, that’s not the same thing. Yes it was time away from running my business and housework, but all I could do was rest in bed.
The example I’ve just thought of, is as an employee you get time off sick and are also entitled to holiday. They are not the same, so why should it be any different now?
Running a business can be full on. Life can be full on. But I’m not about hustle…or hassle!
So maybe this is a sign that sometimes I need holiday time too.
Time away from being business owner Tina.
Time away from being home manager Tina
Time for Tina
When I was working full time in HR, I knew I wanted…needed… to focus more time on my wellbeing. So as well as creating the 3forMe Strategy, I started my Wellbeing Wednesday. (Which by the way was well before I knew it was a phrase used on social media. It even became known amongst my colleagues. If I mentioned I was taking a day off on a Wednesday, I was asked if it was my Wellbeing Wednesday.
So What is Wellbeing Wednesday?
On the last Wednesday of the month, I would take the day off for me. I would review my wellbeing goals and decide what I could do in the month ahead. I have a few blog posts on this, as it used to be a blog series too. Other than that the day was mine to make up as I went along, depending on what I needed and wanted. I had a check in for my mind, body and soul and asked myself what would nourish me the most. What would fill up my cup. Sometimes I would go for a long walk then end up at a coffee shop with my book. Or it might be that I watched a film or met up with a friend. Ultimately it was time just to be.
Since leaving the corporate world, I have a lot more time to focus on my wellbeing. I have learnt and put into place many practices to
- start my day with intention
- slow down
- show gratitude
- keep systems in the house running smoothly
- add exercise into my routine
- move myself up my priority list
One thing I don’t always do is keep to Wellbeing Wednesday on the last Wednesday of the month. Sometimes I justify by saying I have more control over my time (so could those things any time). Hey but do I? My week and weekend often blur and although I love flexibility my life now has I don’t often have time to just relax. So that’s decided. I’ll publish this very different style of blog post- partly to show you my vulnerable side and this does still sometimes happen to me-then today is about me…